quirky lings

just came back from a wedding 'lunch'....
since lunch actually became such a big hit maybe wedding lunches would be a good idea too...
anyway...it was my cousins wedding...so lotsa family there...
tried to stay away from small talk...
hate going through the whole 'WAH....so big already ah'....and i'm not talking about anything other than height or width :P
trying to fit the past 10 years of my life in 5 sentences or so isn't my idea of good conversation...
talks about how we were teeny tiny tots when they all last saw us and how big we've grown is just tedious...
by the way...my family ain't exactly very family orientated...
we don't attend chinese new year reunions...we try to stay away from family dinners that include relatives who are twice removed or more...
so the last time we saw all those people was probably 10 years ago...
we're the quirky lings...so much so that i think we intimidated or maybe even freaked out the strangers sitting at our table with our weird antics and internal jokes...
but hey...we've been taught to speak our minds and not be afraid to be who we are....

so with every wedding....there's always talk of another wedding....
could it be mine or my brothers or some other cousin....?
well...the general consensus is that time is running out...
which i think is a load of crap....
we don't have expiry dates...people who think they do are just too afraid to be alone...
some say that we shouldn't wait till we're 30...others say that now is the time....
then there's talk about meeting the right person....
there's dating agencies....introductions by friends or relatives....blah blah....
sometimes i wonder why some force other than ourselves is supposed to bring us to our other half...
can't it be by my own will...or by my own actions?
can't i meet my future husband by myself?
why does someone have to bring us together?
and hey...even if i do meet him by myself....my relatives (seeing how they're mostly christian) would say that it's God's will....
not my own...but God's....
why are people in such a hurry to meet someone?
not necessarily a future husband or wife but someone they could possibly explore the option with....

i've got friends telling me to go to so and so place cause it's a good place for meeting men...
i've got friends who put so much effort into being polite and nice to people of the opposite sex just so they could win their hearts...
i've got friends who completely lose sense of themselves because they're too busy pretending to be someone else to please others...
is it supposed to be so tedious...is it supposed to be so fake?
gosh...is that why i'm still single?
am i missing something here?