liar liar

24+ years of life and there's so many things i've yet to learn...yet to do...yet to experience. but within these 24+ years there are so many things that i try to forget. where's the logic in that? i know i've done many things in the past that i shouldn't have. made many wrong decisions...hurt many people...made the wrong choices and probably said the wrong things one too many times. i try to block out my past...i call them my dark ages. i do take responsibility for my actions and i'm aware of its consequences.

but even though its long over and years have gone by...things have a funny way of smacking you straight in the face. just when you thought everything is fine...memories and thoughts just manage to creep back in and bite you. nothing is forgotten...at least nothing that is significant can be forgotten. all you can do is accept it and live with it. that's the tricky part...isn't it? but that's the only thing you can do...either that or you could just jump off a building and hope that you either die or end up with head injuries that lead to amnesia.

sometimes you tell people that you're ok. that everything is great and things are going as planned. on certain occasions that would be true but on other occasions it would just be the fattest lie in history. you might believe that you are fine and that things are great but they're not. if you lie to yourself its only logical that you lie to the people around you. its a matter of whether you are aware of the truth that is important. certain people just lie to save themselves the hassle of having to explain and defend themselves. others lie because they don't want to seem weak. then there are those who lie but are not consciously aware of the truth. which one are you?