the offer is still valid?

after reading through some of the things i wrote as far as 2 years back...i realized that with the exception of location...nothing much has changed. i haven't achieved much...i'm still doing what i was always doing. career wise i'm still at the same place with extra years of experience...which by the way in my line of work ain't much. i have zero savings...yes yes...zero. i haven't purchased anything that requires me to take a loan. i haven't travelled to any of the places that i planned to. come to think of it...i don't even have an international passport now since the last one was stolen. the only thing that has improved is my relationship with my friends and family. i'm still trying to figure out whether that is a good thing.

someone once told me that i'll never find a boyfriend...not only because i'm uber picky...but because i'm dog ugly...absolutely daft...plus i'm married to my friends. not only do they have to accept my faults and defects but they have to pass immigrations...customs...quarantine and a stringent quality control check. no wonder that whole 'inspired by sow' entry is still valid. anyway...like i've said many many many many so many times...my friends are great. it's hard to find anyone like them...which is why i haven't made many new friends lately.

i guess that's why i am labelled as antisocial. it's not easy to get a person like me to talk to a stranger. it's not easy for a person like me to get to know someone. first of all...the person must attract my attention by using his intelligence/intellect/wit. i don't like boring people and for me...if a person can't hold a decent conversation it would be the end of the conversation. it's no surprise that i come off as bitchy or stuck up....i've been told that many times. i have to be able to click with someone to cultivate a friendship. there has to be a level of understanding and there definitely as to be some common interest....not a lot but at least some. but it's been said that we can't choose our friends...our friends choose us. we might want someone to be our friend but it's a matter of whether the other person reciprocates that determines whether we really become friends. and with my kind of attitude...it's no wonder that i don't have many friends and that i only stick to the ones that i have. but i have to admit that there are certain people that i'd like to have kept in touch with but didn't...probably because i messed up somewhere along the way. i do piss people off quite often with my erm...slightly skewed beliefs and my very direct opinions and brutal honesty.

this whole danish cartoon thing is getting way too serious. not saying that it's right to insult another persons religion and insinuate that muslims are terrorists...but i do think that they need to lighten up a little. what's been done has been done. you can fight for an apology or just take it with a pinch of salt. laugh at it and leave it. sometimes i wonder why it is people immediately associate muslims with terrorism. is it because of the lack of education...tolerance...understanding...? is it because they're just too caught up in the whole 9/11 incident that they forgot that it was the act of a terrorist cell...not the entire muslim community. they want to blame someone...and since osama can't be found they blame the entire muslim race. then the muslims get offended and angry and things don't look so pretty anymore. and i expected more from the malaysian community.

"Long live Islam. Destroy Denmark. Destroy Israel. Destroy George Bush. Destroy America," some of the protesters shouted.

destroy is a pretty big word no? oh well...things are starting to get real ugly. and for the first time...i'm ashamed to be malaysian. i always thought we were able to handle situations like these with more poise...with more understanding...with more tolerance...and in a civilized manner. screaming "destroy destroy destroy" in the rain ain't exactly the way to make a point.

oh well...before i get arrested and locked up i shall shut up.

by the way...was watching cnn the other day and the question for the inbox that day was "should insulting another's religion be outlawed?". i wonder how they're going to enforce that law if it ever gets enacted. i'd like to see that :P

on a brighter note...anyone watch the grammy's? U2 won the grammy for best song...and they accidentally played mariah carey's song instead. so when it was announced that "the winner is...U2!!!" i expected to hear the U2 song "sometimes you can't make it on your own" for the whole 'walk to the stage' scene but instead i heard mariah carey going "we belong togeeetheeeeer".

and just to embarass myself even further... the backstreet boys sooooo deserves a grammy for best comeback!!!!!