day 1

you are who you pretend to be...so be careful who you pretend to be....

i realize that i personally take many things for granted...
i also take many things too seriously....
and i ignore the all warning signs when things get out of hand...

one minute i can be myself...
the next i can turn into someone completely different....
i can stay in character for as long as i want...
until my head tells me its time to switch....
i bounce from one character to another so easily its like second nature....
and in the midst of it all...i deceive people....
i smile at them...i laugh with them...i laugh at them...
i tease them...i hurt them...i console them...i confide in them....
but how much of it is really true?

so today is day 1...
the first day to what?
i don't really know....
i'm waiting to find out what's at the end of day 5....
hopefully i find myself somewhere...