five point f*cking three

diabetes has been known as the silent killer. it runs in the family so there's always this fear that i'll get it someday. but i don't let the fear control me so i continue eating the foods that are yummy and i continue drinking the drinks that are sinfully sweet and i continue to eat sweets and chocolates because they make me happy. i do however have a do-it-yourself kit to check my glucose level. unfortunately i don't use it very often. but every once in awhile i find myself wondering whether there's been any change. have i done anything to trigger the deadly disease to plague my system? chances are i have but why is it everytime i take the test i'm still safe?

anyway...bottom line...i took the test today. i find myself holding my breath everytime the little machine is processing the results. there's a little hourglass that keeps rotating...which is quite irritating. thankfully its not some smiley face bouncing around cause that would really piss me off. so i prick myself with a needle and carefully transfer the blood onto this little stick that i insert into the handheld machine. then i wait...and luckily for me...its a 5.3.

would it be absolutely wrong for me to wonder why i'm not diabetic yet when i should be by now and not do anything about it? and would it be worse if i say i don't really care?