i want it

why is it that sometimes we choose to ignore what's standing right in front of us?
we choose to focus on the ones standing in the background....
the ones that are far away...unreachable...unattainable....
u say something and it just fades into space...
u make a small gesture and its too tiny to notice...
a big gesture will only attract attention and we don't like attention...
at least not from the people that surrounds us...
not from the people who block the view of this shadow lurking in the background...
the way they move...so stealth-like...as if they're just gliding...
is it the mystery of it all that excites us?
is it a strong desire or just a passing one?
why don't they come towards us?
why do they drift further and further away?
eventually they just become a fading memory...
inside we're screaming to be noticed but outside we put on this facade...
a nonchalant look...
maybe that's the problem...
instead of pretending not to notice maybe we're supposed to shout it out loud....
make it known...make it clear that we want that thing in the background...
cause in the end...isn't it better to at least try rather than to not have tried at all?
who knows...we could possibly end up being....happy :P