back to the roots

23rd december 2006 will be the day that the entire Ling family will get together in one small little kampung called Sitiawan. i haven't been there in almost 15 years so maybe its not a kampung anymore. i've heard that it has grown into quite a modern town now. it might be an educational trip after all.

plus...i've never really gotten to know the Ling's other than my immediate cousins. since i'm such a bitchy and antisocial person by nature...i doubt i'll click with the rest of the relatives. they'll probably think of me as some satanic worshipper with no faith and no dreams. the Ling's are known to be very staunch Christians. not that i have anything against that...its great that they have their own beliefs. i just don't want to be "converted" and i don't want to be blacklisted because of my lack of faith in any religion for that matter. and just my luck...i've been told the whole event will be conducted in a Methodist Church.

the Ling's also have a reputation of being pretty successful and intelligent. wait till they see me. i'll rack up some stares and uncomfortable glances. people will ask "so what do you do?" and i'll reply "nothing...i mean literally nothing". such pity....everyone in sitiawan wanted me to be the next britney spears. such a shame that i decided that bubblegum pop and scandals wasn't something i wanted to delve into. but kudos to the rest of the Ling's who made it. scholarships to harvard and yale...bio-chemists...doctors...lawyers...engineers...good thing you guys made full use of the gene's that were bestowed upon us.

i'm still excited to attend the reunion though. i like putting myself in uncomfortable situations just to see how i wriggle out of it. i'd act all sophisticated...intelligent...interested...and hopefully the night will pass by without any negative feedback to the parents. i always feel as if i'm being summed up...being rated...being compared with everyone else in the fucking family. would december 23rd be any different?