journal: it's easier said than done

is it really? sometimes i think people say things like that because they're just lazy to change...lazy to move from their comfort zone. it's a matter of how much you want to do it....whatever it may be. if you don't want to change then by all means stay where you are. if you think that's the best place for you then you can just stay there but don't expect me to feel sorry for you or to try and understand. everyone has a choice....either this or that. to buy or not to buy...to quit or not to quit...to hold on or to let go. whatever choice you make is your own...not something that people tell you to do...not something that is God's will...it's all yours. deal with it...suck it up...accept it. it might not be the right choice...it might not be the wrong choice...who's to say what's wrong or right except yourself. nobody else knows the details of the situation...the depth of your emotions...the severity of the outcome...the tremendous pain that it's causing. people can tell you that they understand...that they know how you fell...but how many people really do?

yes...it's easier to say make a choice than it is to really pick one...execute and stick to it. it's easy to just say the words without weighing the emotions...the pain. but if you look at it from a logical and reasonable perspective...all roads point to a different direction than the one you're heading down now. i'm not saying that something is wrong. nothing is wrong unless you think it is. and if you turn around...stop for a moment and take a look at yourself...what do you think about your actions? are you being immature...sensitive...dishonest...deceitful? are you in denial? have you really accepted the things i've said? are you dealing with the situation or are you just pretending nothing happened? step away from yourself and tell me....are you happy with what you're doing? do you think its the right thing to do?

darling...don't tell me that it's easier said than done. if you really wanted to do it...you would've done it by now. the fact that you haven't tells me that you don't want to move from this place you're in. i know its comfortable there...it's a place where you know me and i know you...a place where we share memories and experiences. but sometimes things don't turn out the way you want it to. shit happens...so what? deal with it...move on. what are you waiting for?